Secrets of a Butterfly

In memory of my Granda

 

Its my Granda's birthday today, he would have been 87, he passed away on the 5th and it was the funeral yesterday. (the picture is from christmas 2006) I've had flu and had been in bed all week so wasnt sure if i could make it. But i did. I sat at the back of the church in my chair, with dad's help i managed the service. It was good to be able to say goodbye,and to meet extended family afterwards. In the past i wouldnt have been able to attend, as the 12 years in bed prevented me from being at any family gathering over the years. It felt no small achievement to be able to make it now. I think Granda would've been supporting me, as he always asked after me everyday and cared so much about wanting to see me recovering.

 Debbie (my brother's girlfriend) made up a beautiful collage to represent my Granda Bill's favourite things, and printed it on an order of service. i suggested a poem for the inside and the dictionary definition of a Gentleman in words on the back cover. As Granda was such a gentle-man.

All in all we have come through some stressful weeks and months lately as a family. Thank you to everyone who left the comments on the previous post, i found it very supportive once i could get online and catch up on reading them all. it really helped to hear your words,speak again soon i hope, love k x

Strength from kindness

 

I have been holding out hoping to just tell you whats been happening by doing a post about my Granda and his warm nature, and who he was to me. But sadly though his passing has been expected since before christmas, his death has been very drawn out. It is such a distressing time,and to think of him, especially with this the 6th day without fluids and many weeks since food. I had never thought that it could take so long. And its been tiring,for everyone, and upsetting as you can imagine. I have had to have some days in bed(as stress can effect the condition) but overall i am coping,as is my mam. There will be a tremendous relief once he has passed.he will no longer be suffering and we will be able to wind down and not have to live expecting a call at any moment.  

Then there is the matter of trying to find my Gran a place in a home. She wants to go in to one, as isnt coping alone, but there hasnt been a social worker avaliable,so its a case of waiting and hoping for that too.

 My posts maybe a bit less frequent but hopefully i will be able to write that my Granda is at peace very shortly. Two Thankyou's before i go, Mary for all your invaluable support and the sweetest bunny card above, and also thank you Barbara for the parcel of care you sent- lavender is such a calming smell and the white drawstring bag is so pretty.kat x

"From kindness we draw strength and from love we draw meaning to all life, even that which at times seems to be without any meaning."