I found this postcard i'd made up for myself to help me when ever i was feeling low upon my healing path, i did it a few years ago,but think i needed to see it again as things have been a bit hard.I thought too maybe someone out there would need to see the words and that it might share the blessing to post it up here. Things we stumble upon online are never without reason i find.
So here it is,my writing and a picture of Mother Mary from a magazine,i am not catholic by religion but i do feel a comfort from Mary and her unconditionally loving, divine feminine energy. As far as my health and healing goes, i know i am processing quite a bit of stuff and that though tricky it will be worth it, even if its set me back a bit in the shorter term. sometimes it feels like it'll be this way forever, me, seeking to make it through a phase of healing, that is in some way intensifying symptoms, be they physical like exhaustion-where i can't leave the house or within the emotional or energy field area. Always seeking to reach a more normal way of living, where day to day tasks are more easily achieveable, and even become routine!
But deep down i have a sense that its worth keeping going. Always there is a chink of light and i know like my words written above that i am being helped with this whole journey. I need to trust and i think accept, this way that i feel as a necessary thing at the minute. So often in seeking to get better i am focused on how to change how i feel or lift out of it,by using my mind or theraputic techniques to affect a shift or progress in some area, that i can forget that equally there is a place and a need at times to just Allow, and to feel the feelings as they are. To accept how it is can be just as benefitial and sometimes just what's necessary.
At these times when improvement doesn't come so easily then there is little use in pushing against the flow, its best to ride with whats going on. In healing as in life itself,there are times when we can't always have a full say in its direction, and that's ok. There's a wisdom that's there,in working with the current rather than against it, and above all it is a flow we can trust in. Help is avaliable when we ask, let go and let it come to us in whatever way it appears. I am writing these words in reassurance to myself, but i thank you for listening to them this evening. Blessings in love and light kathryn