Have you ever come across a letter or a note from a loved one thats passed away, and found the words so fitting for that present moment that its as if they've just been written to you for that day. This happened to me recently with the note above from my Grandma who many of you know we lost in March. I have been missing her and my Granda a great deal. Especially when i see things i want to share with her, like the sweetpeas above in the collage or the fact the butterflies are returning to the back garden here. seeing her words about the garden and getting stronger in time gave me comfort.
I have been spending as much time there as possible because its so helpful for my recovery. I feel most at home when i'm in surroundings such as a garden, it soothes me and must make a difference to whats healing. I tend to rest there as much as possible as at the moment i can't get out and about. Its been this way for the past 3 months or so, and this is the longest spell of added exhaustion and other things, that i've had since my upturn in health in summer 06. It has been hard coping at certain times and also not doing as much as i could last summer. Sometimes i'm wondering how long until i can do those things again,the nice things i got to do,but also the mundane everyday-ness that i miss. But the way i choose to look at it is, as a spell of restoring, rebuilding,on so many levels and i'm certain it won't be for long. But its just what needs to be right now. So that i can go onto better things once its healed that much,maybe even to regain capabilities that i previously hadnt been able to. Like Grandma said, who knows.
Before mid 2006,and through the 90's i spent many years in bed and missed many summers in our little back garden. So i still really appreciate it when i can get there. Plus i am in touch with many people who are more ill than i am and who a garden day would be their long held dream come true too.
So i thought i'd post up a few pics of just little corners of my special place, its all thanks to my dad that we have so many flowers. Lots of bees and butterflies(i was thrilled that this peacock butterfly stayed still long enough for me to take a photo,before this it had landed on my lounger) and birds like to visit with me and the rabbits are good companions too. They enjoy each others company more than the human touch. Its quite hard to catch them for a cuddle as they riggle if you hold them or run for cover to avoid getting picked up.Most often you'll find them nose to nose, or lying very close, despite the size of their run they'll nestle together as if there's only a few feet of space! funny things ( :
oh by the way, before i go, i got this See by chloe skirt, a real treat in the sale at just £39 and the last one! Urbanoutiftters online again,how cool are they. it is actually a larger size than i'd have chosen but it just means i'm wearing it down on my hips instead of at my waist and i like it like that, as it gives it a bit more length on me. i just love the print almost as much as i love this lilacy blue flower ( : till next time take care xx