This mosaic is a token of admiration and respect for Lynn Gilderdale and her mum Kay and all they have lived through. I watched the Panorama programme on BBC1. I let tears roll down my cheeks, just as they have when i have read about her before. I do not often cry about the illness as a whole, but when its reflected back to you like that, its more than moving, it touches something much deeper. (An article here summarises some of the programme and gives the background of the story i'm speaking of.)
Even though i did not know them personally, as i say their story has moved me. It resonates with my own experience of living a life with severe ME and the decade i spent bedbound needing care from my family.
Lynn and i both took ill at 14, a year apart, i in 1990 her in 1991. Despite the terrible experience of being as ill as i was without strength to sit or leave bed for over 10 years, i was never as seriously ill, or in as much physical pain as Lynn, who was not able to eat and could not move her legs.
Like Lynn my Mam has cared for me and been my support through so many things i never dreamt that i would have to feel.
After such a long time of intense pain and health complications,Lynn had to escape that amount of suffering in the only way possible for her. Her situation is one that many would find impossible not to feel compassion, and total respect towards. She had coped for 17years with what many would find unbearable for a matter of months or weeks even, it shows how strong she was in spirit, that she handled that for that length of time.
I have moved into easier times, and i have the gift of hope that there can be even better ones waiting, I wish with all my heart that the same had been so for Lynn. Had she been able i'm sure she would have loved the blog community and the care that exists here.
I chose images that i felt she would have been drawn to, softness and nature that i know she will have missed for so long. Candles for light in the darkest of hours, a heart for love from those who understand. So this is for you Lynn,(and also my friends and anyone out there who is very ill with ME) i didnt know you, but in a way i feel i do,(i think you will understand what i mean) i just want to thankyou for your beautiful Spirit, honour your courageous heart and i wish you Peace in Heaven darling (and energy to dance free). love kathryn xxx
1. Nijhum Dip (Nijhum Island), 2. A Promise, 3. i carry your heart, 4. Haven, 5. petit présent, 6. Yay!!!!!, 7. the light, 8. heart of a rose, 9. parfum doux, 10. In the garden, 11. untitled, 12. little heart light, 13. a sunny afternoon