I seek to look at the world through eyes of love, to be inspired by what I see.
I do not want to feel jealous of what others have, things that I yearn for, I want to be inspired to continue to hope and dream.
I want to share in their joy at being alive. I want to create these pictures in my own dreams that help them come one step closer to a reality.
It maybe that when I connect with wonderful souls such as Faith, and look through her photos at Instagram, that at times, I am overwhelmed by the feelings of not having a partner or children of my own. Not having days out or time amongst the beautiful nature of Mother Earth. That now in the second half of my thirties, I fear will I ever have those things that my heart so needs and longs for. The illness has already taken away so much, will it prevent that also from becoming manifest. Will it remain only a dream buried deep in my soul.
Friends i have made through instagram, may live the life that i have such similar wishes for. It may at times be immensely painful to see it, but for the most part it somehow touches my heart, lifts it, delights it, and ends up being more inspiring than it is saddening. It's always a choice, how we react to things, that power we at least have.
Whether we are envious or delighted by others, whether we are forever downcast by the buffeting of life's tougher experiences, or whether we can strengthen ourselves up through choosing to see all that we are rich in despite the pain.
Somehow seeing the joys of being a mother, lived as richly through lives like Faith's, brings it closer into my own sphere, and keeps my attention on what I want to live, not how ill I may be feeling, while I have to be permanently resting.
Thank you Faith, and others who may see this like Kirsten, whom i have connected with from around the world, for strengthening my own dreams by sharing your life experiences ....you never know what positive affects your sharing can have. I guess that is something we can all be aware of when we post at Instagram or blogs, that we are touching lives in ways we may not imagine.
That is definitely something that I take heart from. When I am inspired by someone may I also remember that I inspire others. When I receive something from someone, a word, a gift, a kind remark, may I also recognise the impact I have through the giving of these things myself.
Like a big circle we are intricately connected, in one great flow of giving and receiving. There is always something to touch the heart and uplift me, this I look for, this I hold to,
Love and light kat xx