(Photo here by Susan Gary on Flickr, someone who's work always inspires me and who shares my love of flowers, butterflies and birds, especially these tiny beauties)
To blog or not to blog?
I was thinking recently about my situation the ups and the down right tough times.
I haven't really wanted to share what I've been going through. Sometimes life gets a little too personal to put it all out there on a page.
It's tempting to think of Secrets as a journal but really it's not secret at all, it can be seen by so many.
So yes some things are best kept to ourselves and navigating which to write and which to indeed keep secret is tricky.
Suffice to say I made my journey that I spoke of in a previous post, and it wasnt that smooth, but at the same time it was a tremendous achievement. I am both proud and disappointed. Proud of myself and disappointed it was so tough.
After the rockiness of those days, I am in a slightly more settled patch but still needing some lifting up.
I miss normality.
I miss the normality I find in my daily browse and interaction with others online. But more so I need the normality of day to day "reality"
Yes definitely a normal reality is what I need more of. The things taken as boring or monotonous. These are the very things that in lots of ways matter most to our mental and emotional health.
Routine. Regularly doing something. Breeds control and safety within. Gives us order and a say in our lives. A lack of which has impacted on me again the past few years.
So this leads me back to my blog and what if anything to post about. When you're not necessarily up to sharing the pretty stuff and aren't feeling at peace enough to write advice or insight. What do I say that's worthwhile....mmm? Much to ponder. Till next time when maybe that will all be clearer to me.
Fly as high as you can & drink nectar with the hummingbirds, dream as deeply as is in your nature, and don't forget to bless your own heart when you bless others,
Ps caught a fascinating program on Sky this week about hummingbirds, and am now in love with them (shhhh don't tell the butterflies, though hopefully they won't mind)