i am over the moon

I am over the moon with my new banner its so me! i have the lovely Julie to give a massive thankyou to for all her beautiful handy work.Its something i have wanted for ages but hand not a clue where to start and dont have the software to digitally manipulate images.The same goes for my one on esty,wher i hope to upload some treasures to sell very soon. here's some i've been working on

i've been enjoying some quieter time abou the house lately so have turned my hand to a few different types of things, i want to have a good assortment on my etsy a bit like you'd find in a shop. I wasnt so good for a couple of weeks as some of you know but i'm coming back to myself again now. Alot of the recovery process needs to take its own time and sometimes emotional healing can effect my energy or vice versa. I found i needed to take some steps down a gear or two but it was nothing like the old days.

Dad was off work for a week and its been great as the sun hasnt stopped shinning so i had some runs out in the car with him and mam. Although mam drives us about locally her own health difficulties(rheumatoid arthritis from 30) mean she is unable to drive so far and so we tend to save those trips for time with dad. I feel strange talking about my trips out with my parents when other blogs i read are about trips with children or spouse. But then i think about alot of my friends dotted around Britian who are still very ill and unable to go on any trips out at all just like i couldnt for so long, and then i feel grateful all over again for the new turn my life has taken. (comfort parcels i sent annie and emily both very ill girls who need love light and prayers right now and have for a long time...the handmade crochet blankets were from a charity stall in Alnwick and the unique handmade kitten and bunny are fromTiddly winks on Etsy )

And so it doesnt then seem to matter that i am still living at home and spend my time with my parents because at least i have this second chance at life after 15 years away from living this was me Jan 06 and just about able to sit for a quick photo on my birthday also Jan 2006.........and this is me now just over a year into recovering from ME...sitting in an entirely different place. i didnt get out the house for over 10 years so now when i do whether in car,wheelchair or walking a bit i always like to take photos as it means so much!this is a farm shop this week

I always held onto getting better despite the length of time so severely ill and i hold onto other dreams coming about too in time, now that i have this change beginning it is even more likely. Even in the darkest times i just had something inside me that made it seem possible and which i had to hold onto.

"if we have hope we have strength to go on,  but if we have love we have everything ".  i am ever so thankful to have my parents and to get on so well with them.The biggest of all thankyou's goes to them it goes without saying i would not be here today literally without their unconditional love and support and all the caring for me theyve had to do. this was at the lakes in July,oh those mountains, to be back there again!....

As far as my improving health is concerned, I know i have worked at it and it hasnt been just presented to me but at the same time there is a timing to these things and for the way forward to come to me when it did was certainly divinely guided and for that to be gifted to me when it was i am also ever grateful. More grateful than just a few words can convey.

It seems this post has turned into one of great thanks as its theme! i think its because at the back of my mind i have been taking a leaf out of some of my favourite blogs 'books' and decided to be more open and expressive in my writing. to let some of you,dear friends old and new, into more of an insight to my life and what i'm feeling. I think its good for me to write about it more and to get the increased benefit of that. afterall i dont tend to talk that much to people apart from in this way. so i need it. Hopefully it is of interest too,to all of you. But even if i were just typing into thin air it'd still feel like i was chatting to someone, somehow blogs have that ability to end the isolation.Or at least take the edge of it, as you get to make contact with so many nice ordinary people with extraordinary lives,experiences and interets to share with you. So Thankyou to you too, for reading and being a part of my community. Love Kat

Comments

[julie]

What a brave and beautiful post Kat - thanks for sharing some of your story with us. It sounds like life has been a battle for you for so long and it's wonderful to read that your strength is returning and that you're able to enjoy getting out more. Your Mum and Dad sound like very special parents and you obviously have a wonderful close and loving family. I'm so pleased that you like the banners and I'll email you back shortly x

[Tracy]

Hello! This is my first visit--and I'm so glad to have found you! Your post is so wonderful, full of hope and life! It is terrific to see the transfomational photos, your "before" and "after." So very glad you are gaining some strength and able to enjoy many things again. A loving, supportive family, and friends makes all the difference. Your experience with fatigue reminds me of my own--I have narcolepsy, which is a real drain on energy. I feel tired all the time. Yoga is a big help--it's saved my life. So has crafting. And I love all the creations you share here. You take wonderful photos too. Lovely new banner! I look forward coming back and reading/seeing more. Happy Days :o)

[Bonnie]

Hi Kat. I missed this post for some reason..could be because the last few days have been wonderful weather and I have been out in nature, savoring the sunshine and enjoying it with my dear little children. On Friday we went to the nature reserve, my favorite place (photos on my blog) and today we sat in the garden and had a picnic and then planted seedlings.
I could never begin to imagine what you have gone through..so I won't even try! But I just wanted to say that I think you are very brave and positive and also kind in sharing your thoughts that give us who are fine and healthy some insight into what others go through. but also your story may in turn encourage and help someone undergoing something similar to you. Your parents sound wonderful and very supportive and you should not feel ashamed that you are still living with them or that when you speak about your outings, you speak about going out with them, family is so important and something wonderful to have! I can't believe the transformation from your Jan 06 photo to the ones of you now, so amazing-now you have light and a sparkle in your eyes! Thanks for sharing this Kat. Take care...Bonnie